Trust

I hear from my friends in the Commandos that when you jump off the plane in the sky, not only you don't have time to pee, you don't have time to think of anything but just enjoy the view and trust in your parachute. If you don't have the trust, you may panic and fumble, and the parachute may never be released on time properly.

Its very strange when you think about trust. It's just a feel in your heart. It's not even in your head because it cannot be in your head. When it is in your head, it tends to become logic. And when it becomes logic, you start to think with your head again and then things start to become complicated and imbalance because you are thinking of right or wrong, good or bad, left or right. So in the example of a parachuter, he cannot trust with his head because the head is thinking why the hell are you jumping from 50000km above sky. But when he has trust in his heart, he will let go and enjoy the fall, knowing that things would be alright. It is this sense of knowing that is extremely difficult to accomplish. But once done, it feels brighter than enlightment and more serene than your own peace.

So today I let Jia Hui drive my car on her way home. I don't know what came over my head (besides the combination of beer, the sambal sotong, the grilled stingray and delicious mussels), halfway home I decided to let a 19 year old who has barely passed her driving test 3 months ago take over the wheels. And boy she's good ! For once in my entire driving life of 13 years, I was able to take the backseat of my own car and be driven. I call this my virgin backseat ride. I think I could trust Jia Hui to handle the car well. No instructions given and no questions. I had that special sense of trust in my heart like any bungee jumper would. For a brief 5 seconds, I sat back, relaxed, closed my eyes and enjoyed the motion on the outside and the stillness on the inside of the car. I was on the move yet keeping still. Thats the beauty of being driven and that's the essense of trust.

Lexus anyone?